Christmas is almost here!

Christmas is one of my favorite times of year and yes it doesn't seem like Christmas at all! 60 degrees today and the sun even came out! I know everyone will love my gifts, at least they better! And while that's exciting the most exciting is that me and Chris will close on our first home the 30th of December which is 9 days away. I am excited for me but also for my cats ;) Because I'm a crazy cat person. They are enjoying all my packing so they can be in the way as much as possible. I'm trying to think of paint colors and all the stuff that I find fun! I wish I had pics but I lost my camera battery charger and of course they are on there lol! I'll keep you updated of course.

Life is Unexpected

It's been far too long since I've posted a blog. 8 months to be exact! And in that time, life has proven to me once again how it can change and how people can change. As you know, from the last blog I posted 8 months ago I got my own apartment and me and Chris were on the fritz. Well I am happy to say it ended up being the best thing that ever happened to me and us, even though I never would have believed it at the time! We are now engaged, planning an early wedding (small) and cheap! We are buying our first home together! I cannot wait for those first few nights in our own home. It makes me tear up just thinking about it! Now our life is full of overtime and decisions. Not fun! But grown up stuff never is. Life can change, let it. Let it change you- flow with it instead of against it, it could be the best thing that ever happens to you.

Following the Heart

A week ago today I signed the lease to my own apartment. It will be the first time I will be living alone. For the most part, besides my two furry roommates. I'd love to say it wasn't an easy decision, but in the end it was. There isn't one reason for why after two years of living with Christopher I've decided to branch out on my own, there are many. Around the time I'll be taking those baby steps to my own independence, we would have been celebrating our 6th year together.

He has been the best roommate I've ever had, and one of my best friends. There are parts of us that have just never seemed to come full circle. I know he is a great man, not just a good man but a fantastic man with a lot of care in his heart for me and my family. Maybe part of it is watching my two best friends get married to their better halves and just knowing how insanely right they are for each other, and doubting if me and Chris have the same rightness. I'm not sure.

We have had good talks and bad talks about all of this. We haven't decided if we are going to end our relationship though. I only know that I always want him in my life, I just don't know in what capacity. I would love to stay best of friends, but he says he would always want more. I love him and none of this has been easy. In the end, I've decided to follow my heart through the storm and hope to find a rainbow on the other side, for both of us.

The absence could make the heart grow fonder, who knows. I surely do not. In a years time though, I will.

Todd & Piper

Peek a Boo

Kitty Love

My sweet Furr Babies

Friday- Fail day

I just have to confess my diet today was absolute terd. It all started with the pot luck at work which had a buffet of the following; Lasagna, 2 mac and cheeses, sloppy joe, buffalo chicken dip and thank goodness two bowls of fruit! Of course I started my meal with all intentions of sticking to my diet! I had an entire bowl of fruit (delish!) then had a little mac and cheese (each one) lasagna and buffalo chicken dip. I also ate one of my sandwiches my fudge grahams (100 cals though!) then Miranda called me and we went to dinner at PF Changs. It was also delish and I hadn't had it in years. I filled up on Wonton soup (What's a Wonton?? Don't worry I asked. It's a steamed....dumpling....thing) and lettuce wraps before eating some almond and cashew chicken. Then we went back to our apartment where Chris had to keep our tradition of pizza Friday and then in turn I had to stick with the tradition of eating pizza on Friday! Dessert was 2 small bowls of the meal I had put in the crockpot this morning of chicken, asparagus, mushrooms, and potatoes.

I am not adding up my weight watchers points but I do have a plan to eat small tomorrow at Bucca Di Bepo then get back on the train. I cannot stand to lose 4.8 lbs just to gain! Not again. Never again!

Goodnight Old Man and little lady

I know this blog will seem stupid to many and that's okay. Today I found out that two of my parents cats are missing, and more than likely have gone on to kitty heaven to chase mice and balls of yarn for eternity, thanks to the coyotes. I just wanted to give a shout out to my little buddies. Cami was a precious little lady who loved to be outside and thrived when being loved on. I'll miss you little girl.

Spikers, old spikers. You were mine from the beginning. My mom brought him home to me after I was having a hard time fitting in at school. She knew I always wanted a cat and there happened to be a man at her workplace who were looking for a good home for their cat since they were soon to be retired and traveled a lot and left him alone. My mom without even asking my dad if it was okay that she brought home an inside cat walked through the door with this cute old man and my heart soared! A cat! Just for me! I was kinda obsessed with cats in my younger years I should point out and sorry to Spike for scaring him so that he hid inside our old dryer for at least 4 days... Anyways I loved him and he really had no interest in me lol but he was adorable and what I always wanted. He was always pretty independent, even more so than a normal cat. He loved to bite the top of my head and cuddle up on the couch and just be hugged. He lived a long life, the guesstimate is around 18-20 years old, and most of that was spent outside! I'm still hoping that you both decided to hitch a ride out of that crappy ole town instead of becoming dinner for a coyote. 

Either way, I do feel as though I owe you a thank you Spike and Cami. You made me a whole person, animals have a way of doing that. I loved taking care of you and hope you are at peace. I owe you about a million hugs in heaven, sorry I was kind of a rotten teenager and ignored you after I found myself again. Love you. :)

Weight Watchers

It's been a full week since my first weight watchers meeting and I have lost 4.8 lbs. It has been relatively easy which I realized today is probably because my allowed points is so high since I'm a bigger lady. So I try to think of the future and adjusting my diet for the rest of my life and not just for now.



 I did go over my points today by 11, but it was that kinda day! Cold, snowy, dreary, just blah! I think this could be good for me. I'm happy, for the first time in awhile with almost everything in my life. I just need to slow down and stop trying to speed up the process and instead just roll with the punches. This is my life, and I want to enjoy it!